Letters to you... would you miss me?

If tomorrow I left the country never to return what would regret not telling me?

If I were to die today what would you regret not doing together?

If you never saw me again what would you regret the most?

Would you have regrets?

Would you miss me at all?

Would you remember me fondly?

These thoughts reside in me often these days.  Not in a morbid sense but rather in the way that keeps me present in this moment.  Taking nothing for granted.  Enjoying each connection with every person I encounter in my life.  Relating.

Our lives are full of things – things to do, things to have, things to be – but what if we stripped them all away.  Removed all our things and stood bare before each other.  Naked.  Reduced to our purest form and just were.  Just as we were the day we arrived into this world.  Innocent.  Naive.

Immune to the pressures and influences that shape us.

Can we connect on the most basic level – as humans.

When you take away all that we have, we are all that is left.  Beings, souls residing in flesh.  The beauty of this world resides within our bodies – our thoughts and feelings rooted deep within who we are.  Who we are is far greater than what we have.  It cannot be bought and it cannot be taken away and yet we keep it well hidden.  Sometimes even from ourselves. 

I see peoples light and goodness.  I’m often blinded by their potential.  I wouldn’t have it any other way.  This way of connecting – of wanting to delve deeper – share secrets and stories.  Adventures.  Disclose the ugliness of our fears and realize that when exposed to the light of day, of another – that the burden lessens, the world opens up.  We become free.

I surround myself with lovely people – hearts of gold among them even if they hide them well.  I peak around the corners and into the darkness but I am never afraid.  Curious and amazed by what I see – beauty hidden within the scars and strength that shape our curves.  Exquisite humans beneath the surface, beneath the haves.  The humans that stand before me, surround me, fill my life with love and grace.

Many wear their armor – surrounded by their stuff but I see them free – unencumbered.  Their essence and magic and I seek to connect.

I ask myself these questions because tomorrow and all the days after are full of unknowns, change ever present – people come and go, the nature of relationships change.  I think of these questions to keep myself grounded, to be present in the moment and grateful for the time that we share.  No regrets, just compassion for each of our journey’s. 

I don’t fear the future now and I don’t regret the past because the beauty stands here now in these moments.  Leaving smiles in my wake on their faces.  Touching their hearts with love.  Breathing life into every one of them as they do in return because we never know when the changes will come.  Will tear them away or the relationship fades.  The beauty is now.  Be here now.